First of all, I wanted to thank all of you who took the time to read and comment on my last post. I was in a discouraging place, and your kind and thought-provoking words helped me move on from there.
I’ve felt more sure of myself since writing (ever notice how writing is cathartic like that?), but for some reason have hesitated to post anything else on here. I now know why. There was a post I needed to read first before being able to sort out my thoughts.
Our lives are filled with a myriad ‘forks in the road’ as it were. Choices are made every day that can alter the way our lives play out. There is often not a wrong or a right to the everyday, mundane choices we make. (Thank goodness, or can you imagine the utter paralysing fear that we’d be in constantly????)
I made the mistake of presuming that the voice inside my head telling me that I’m not good enough was unavoidable. That I had no choice but to hear it. Truth of the matter is, I DO choose to hear it . . . most likely from fear of rejection (I’ve had issues with THAT my entire 35 years of life . . . ugh!).
Well, no more!
Today, and every day if necessary, I CHOOSE to be the person God created me to be . . .
I CHOOSE to be a Godly wife who submits herself willingly to a righteous husband’s leadership
I CHOOSE to be a mother who teaches her only son how to become a righteous man through the everyday learning process that is our home school
I CHOOSE to be the listening ears, the warm embrace, the LOVE that friendship is all about
I CHOOSE to follow God’s plan for me . . .
which means . . .
I CHOOSE to sing as if no one but God is listening
(PS ~ this post was written on Tuesday, but I delayed posting until today because I was hoping to figure out how to use the technology available to me to add a clip of me singing, which obviously hasn’t happened yet . . . stay tuned?)